Somewhere within my current rebellion against the Jewish People, God, and observance in general, I found the strength, courage and desire to go to shul last night. And it wasn't all bad either.
I got to sit next to a bunch of Germans visiting the States. I wonder how much the Aleinu resonated with their own ideologies....
And then came the time for announcements, an act that goes on way too long at all synagogues, especially BJ, especially given that they already hand out a newsletter. Oh well.
With all of the nonsense that goes on within our world - that being the insular world of 8 million people who seem to make up the majority of everywhere I go - it amazes me that we actually do get a lot of things right.
For example, Birthright Israel. Simply amazing. Stellar. Unbelievable. Awe-inspiring. If I had a million dollars (if I had a million dollars) I'd donate it all to the organization right now (after I kept enough to buy myself a llama, of course). Better, I'd then drop out of school and become a professional Birthright madrich for the rest of my life.
I never imagined that witnessing 41 young adults grow into their Jewish shoes would be so moving an event. Who could know that there actually is hope for the Jewish people - that amcha is quite bright, and interested, just in need of a little push and inspiration.
I want to stay.... I can't wait to get more involved at home.... I actually think I want to go to synagogue.... Could I join the IDF right now?
Some say that religion is all about giving people meaning in their lives. I'd argue the opposite for Judaism. The world is already full of Jewish meaning, embodied, in many respects (though certainly not all) in a place called Israel. Most American Jews have simply been blinded to this meaning by virtue of 3,000 miles of ocean. Judaism, or Birthright Israel at least, is about showing Jews the meaning that already exists - the significance in life that is waiting to be cared about, to be dealt and argued with.
Six years later, 100,000 Jewish young adults have been given the gift of a lifetime and shown what Judaism's potential is. Our Jewish future has been altered irrevocably.
Why am I still fighting?
And then, back at BJ, the leader of the 20-30 somethings group came up to give an announcement. And then he got down on his knee and proposed to his girlfriend whom he had met a few years prior through the group he now leads. And then she said yes, and then we celebrated. It all made sense. We sang, we danced, I went home and fell asleep.
It all made sense. It all makes sense.
Who cares about incorrect and unexpected grades? Screw rules and precedent and expectations. Embarrassment? Who needs it! There's a real world out there, with real Jews, Jews who need substance, crave knowledge and want leadership.
My fight will end tonight at sundown.
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